Christmas has passed–how was yours?
I will admit–I was not at all I to Christmas this year. No decorations, no excitement, and up until the last week, no presents. My mind was too divided.
Even my annual photo calendar tradition, or especially this project, just kept getting put off. Then I finally decided to just wait. Wait for what? I’m not sure. Until my mind settles down I guess.
I’ve been very unsettled, between the approaching end for Dad, then good days here and there. Good-ish. Better than the bad days.
We all dreaded Christmas.
We knew Dad would not even know what was happening, let alone enjoy it. And Christmas should be enjoyed. How could we enter into celebration with Dad suffering in the next room? We just could not.
But we gathered anyway.
Went through the motions of gifts, and I went to Walmart and did all my shopping in one day. Unusual for me, the indecisive one. Practically ruled the day, and required less brainpower than creating something unique.
I say this, and it probably sounds like I’m depressed, and maybe I am in a way, but I feel like it’s more of the unsettled feeling more than the darkness of sadness. I think we all have a touch of sadness–it’s the grieving process–anticipatory grieving. Knowing it’s coming, yet living.
But I will say that we were surprised at Christmas. God gave us a gift. Dad woke up and talked more–he ate with relish, and asked to get up. He’s been too weak for any of that for weeks. Maybe it was Jimmy coming again. Maybe it was just a Christmas blessing.
So, even though it was a difficult process, we got him up with the Hoyer into the wheelchair. We brought him out into the living room and he even received a few gifts.
Dad didn’t know what to do. He didn’t understand the gifts. He did understand that he got pudding–“should I eat it now?”
He understood a hand to hold, and he held on tightly.
That was our best gift.
It didn’t last. Dad got tired and was still mixed up, but he seemed glad he’d joined in. We got him to bed and the day seemed better.
We played a few games, enjoyed family, knowing that nothing is promised beyond today.
God gave us a Christmas blessing.
How about you?
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1. The 30-Day Faith Detox – Book Review from Create With Joy
2. Chicken Sheet Pan Nachos from Homemade on a Weeknight
3. Creating a Seed Starting Schedule from It’s My Sustainable Life
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